| Someone was holding a gun at the back of my head. | | | | The powerful voice disappeared.... |
| He never pulled the trigger but it always scared me to | | | | I was thrilled... Finally, i had found a way to get rid of the |
| hell ! I was always a frightened individual. I became | | | | gunman.But the very next moment I was frightened |
| nervous and used to panic at small things going wrong. | | | | again. I prayed to God for only five minutes, i was not |
| Everywhere i went the gun man followed me... to | | | | a creative person and i never had the habit of listening |
| work, to the bank, to the airport, to the malls, to bed | | | | to my inner voice... So what do i do....? |
| and even when i was asleep..... He never pulled the | | | | The powerful voice spoke again.... |
| trigger, perhaps he never wanted to..... | | | | "Practise seeing the good and the bad in the world |
| Whenever i wanted to speak up, the gunman raised | | | | through the Lord's eyes... Use His eyes to see the |
| his voice and i mellowed down like a tame lamb. All | | | | world and use your eyes to see your inner world.... |
| times, that i wanted to express my views he would | | | | That way you will be praying to Him all day..... |
| simply tell me to shut up.... There were occasions when | | | | You don't have to be a poet,painter, or a writer to be a |
| i wanted to share my views with people but the | | | | creative person.. Creativity can be applied to anything |
| moment i rose to speak the gunman made me | | | | that you do.. Creativity is nothing but a slight shift in |
| nervous... My palm used to get wet , i used to panic | | | | your thinking pattern, where you allow a greater force |
| and everything fell apart.... It seemed to me that he | | | | to take over you... You don't apply pressure on |
| wanted to nip my courage in the bud... This continued | | | | yourself, you don't try to do anything intelligent , you |
| for more than 10 years... I got used to the gunman..... | | | | don't make use of your memory. You allow yourself to |
| I never ventured to do anything courageous. I went | | | | travel to a place beyond your senses where the rules |
| about my daily activities like a hostage pushed from | | | | of external world do not apply. You allow yourself to |
| one cell to another....One day i told my five year old son | | | | be unpredictable and illogical and yet your work would |
| about the gunman... I lacked the courage to tell anyone | | | | take a shine of its own, a beauty which is unparallel to |
| else.... My son got pretty excited and told me "Dad i | | | | anything created so far....... Anyone can do this... The |
| would like to meet the gunman.... Next time that he | | | | best way to get started is to consciously imagine a |
| holds the gun at the back of your head call me. I will | | | | new world and willingly enter into it..... |
| slowly get behind him and shoot him with my machine | | | | Your inner voice was always speaking to you but you |
| gun(he love his toy) and he will die........" I had a hearty | | | | had muted it's voice... You were so engrossed in |
| laugh after a long time.... | | | | listening to the stupid tapes which was playing day in |
| That night i drew little courage from those bold words | | | | and day out in your mind without your knowledge.. All |
| of my son. I thought instead of shooting him from the | | | | you need to do is practice being silent for a while and |
| back why don't i take shelter at some place where he | | | | you would start listening to your inner voice.... |
| can never follow me.Various ideas came to my mind | | | | Practice all the above three things and soon the |
| and then a powerful voice spoke from within ...... | | | | gunman would disappear all by himself.... " |
| " When you pray to God and surrender to Him the | | | | The powerful voice disappeared... |
| gunman would never be visible..... | | | | The next day i woke up in the middle of the night. I |
| " When you do anything creative you would never | | | | heard a gun shot... I looked around and could find no |
| spot the gunman..... | | | | one... I looked inside of me and found a dead man |
| "When you listen to your real self, your inner voice the | | | | holding a gun in his hand... On a closer look his face |
| gunman would disappear... | | | | resembled mine.. The force of God has shot my lower |
| All other times he would follow you.... " | | | | self in the dark.... |