Spiritual Growth - Growth in Self Awareness

What is spiritual growth? How does a human beingThe self-identity of the ego is now complete. The
grow from birth to spiritual enlightenment? What is theagape light of "i am" is no longer able to shine, and the
process?light of all reality not consistent with the ego's "beliefs"
I believe that spiritual growth is simply the process ofcannot get in.
awakening our consciousness; becoming conscious ofWe forget our essential self even exists. Both "i am"
ultimate reality and "what is".and "I AM" disappear! The idea that we are pure
Like many things that are "simple", it is not easy toagape love, that we are co-creators with "I AM", is
achieve. If it were, there would be many morerejected as ridiculous.
enlightened persons in the world than there are. WhatOnce formed, the ego is very invested in surviving;
do I mean by awakening or becoming conscious ofboth; physically and psychologically. The ego "self"
reality? And why is it so difficult?does not like change because it means that some part
Let me begin by saying that whatever your personalof it's self-identity must die in order to make room for
understanding of God, or Creator is, the commonly helda new ego "self". If the ego "believes" something to be
theistic view of God as a "person" who lives in a placewrong, not consistent with it's beliefs, it will label it as
called "heaven" is not going to be helpful when we try"not true, or not right" and then reject it. In this way the
to understand the process of human spiritual growth.self-identity of the ego is protected from change. The
I find it much more useful to understand God or theego's belief is "THE" truth. In other words, when a firmly
Creator as the creative spiritual energy of pure agapeheld belief of the ego encounters reality, reality will
love or perhaps the radical Consciousness of purechange, not the belief.
being; the creative Consciousness of the UniverseSaid simply, the psychological survival of the ego
itself.requires that the ego avoid change by being rigidly
If we are born in the image of God as many believe,invested in being right. The need to be right is a primary
then at the moment of birth, before the world get itssource of conflict and suffering in the world.
hands on us, we are essentially a pure, untarnishedUnless we are able to understand how powerful this
child of God; a child born in the image of God.tendency of our ego is to allow in only what we
At that moment we are nascent consciousnessalready believe, we cannot grow. This is especially true
manifesting pure creative agape love; able to lovewhen it comes to spiritual growth.
without a "because". At that moment we are able toRemoving the log in our own eye is not easy work. It
manifest the infinite. We are simply a wave called "ican be achieved only when we deeply understand
am" resting in the ocean called ""I AM"".and fully accept that the seeds of conflict and
We do not need a "because" to elicit our love. Wesuffering are embedded in our own heart. Not just our
love because agape love is our essential creativeneighbors.
energy. It is simply who we are. The agape loveSpiritual growth therefore, is simply a process of
energy of " i am" is the same as the creative energygetting back in touch with our essential selves; a
of pure agape love and compassion of "I AM".process of awakening consciousness and discerning
This is how I understand the idea of "being born in thewhat our ego "believes" to be reality.
image of God". The goal of the enlightened person isTo summarize, spiritual growth is growth in
simply to return to this essential self; this place of pureself-awareness. Any growth in self- awareness is
awakened consciousness where we began ourspiritual growth. Spiritual growth is nothing more than a
human journey.process of understanding and accepting the many
Conceptually, I find it useful to think of this "essentiallayers of "ego stuff" that keep us from sitting with
self" or localized "i am" as the center of a small circlereality as it really is, and manifesting our essential
that is surrounded by "I AM" --- "THE" creative ground,energy called agape love.
the creative essence of all reality.Growth in self-awareness means understanding and
As we grow and develop over time into a separateaccepting the simple reality that each of our beliefs not
ego "self", a "unique" individual, opaque layers of "egoonly distort reality, they reject all aspects of reality that
stuff" called beliefs, certainties, expectations, fears,do not exactly conform to that belief.
desires, likes, dislikes, attachments, assumptions,A friend once told me humorously that the plum line for
conclusions, prejudices, illusions, judgments, roles, labels,what is right and true ran directly down the middle of
and worries begin to build up layer by layer ashis ego.
concentric circles around the "i am".Change, the fundamental act of creation, and spiritual
The essential light of "i am" is slowly covered by thegrowth, are both challenging work for the ego. Both
impenetrable grime of this ego stuff until the light ofrequire an awakened consciousness. Each time we
agape love of "i am" is no longer visible. Instead ofgrow in self awareness and empty the ego of its
manifesting the agape love of the Creator, wemany layers, we move closer and closer to
increasingly manifest our individual ego or self-identity.manifesting the essential energy of the authentic self,
Over time, these layers of "ego stuff" become thethe creative "i am" agape love energy that co-creates
definition of who we "are"; an "object", separate, apart,with the creative agape love energy of "I AM".
and unique from all other unique "self" objects. TheThe reality is we are co-creators with "I AM". The
beliefs, assumptions, and other "ego stuff" that we callwave can never be separated from the ocean. The
our "self-identity" and which effectively blocks the lightonly choice we have is---are we going to consciously
of "i am" or the essential self, are each like small lensescreate love and compassion, or unconsciously create
that distort reality. The more rigid the belief, the thickerpain and suffering.
the lens. These "lenses", or ego "beliefs", distort realitySpiritual growth is nothing more than our ability to
in that they allow into the ego only those aspects ofincreasingly manifest this essential agape energy that
reality that the ego believes to be true; they effectivelyresides at the center of who we really are.....our
block out the rest of Creation by labeling it as "notessential self.
true".