| In today's accelerated world, many of us have felt | | | | A few years ago, I awoke to find my own spirit |
| inexplicably drawn to the psychic realms. Healers, light | | | | outside of my body, working on my energy field. For a |
| workers and other curious people have spent a | | | | second there was a split consciousness. I had, for a |
| lifetime taking course after course in the attempt to | | | | brief moment, all of the knowledge one has outside of |
| develop and master the skills that rival those taught at | | | | a body while being fully awake. I looked up at my own |
| Hogwarts. For those interested, it is a deep cry to | | | | self with an expression that said, "Busted!" I wasn't |
| access abilities that we just know we once had and | | | | scared, it was so exciting, but in an instant I was back |
| should have again. While there are many psychic skills | | | | in my body. I tried to hold on to that immeasurable |
| available, open-eyed clairvoyant ability is often times | | | | knowledge, but it was gone, I was devastated. I sat on |
| considered the blue ribbon. | | | | my bed for the remainder of the night and it took me |
| I didn't start seeing in this way until I was in college. I | | | | several days to recuperate from the loss of that vast |
| can thank all the pot smoking, art making and | | | | understanding, knowledge and contact. And that was |
| unsupervised shamanic work for leaving gaping holes | | | | the real key: in order to have all that vision, it is |
| in my aura, attracting God knows what. I went to an | | | | imperative to also have all that knowledge in which to |
| art college in Providence, Rhode Island, a charming | | | | support it, and that, as a human being, is part of the |
| New England town full of old buildings, history and | | | | developmental process. The multi-leveled, |
| teaming with wayward spirits. At first I thought I was | | | | multidimensional world of spirit requires so much |
| imagining what I was experiencing, but my trusty cats, | | | | maturity and acceptance, especially if one wants to |
| Chica and Jesus (pronounced Hay-soos - they were | | | | use it to assist others in their path. Recently, when I |
| Hispanic cats), always confirmed my visions and | | | | expressed my frustration to my guide team about my |
| experiences with their behavior. | | | | vision still not being open enough, they eloquently said: |
| There were two experiences that stood out. One | | | | What do you want to see? This is a good question to |
| night, I was reading on my bed with my cats napping | | | | ask. Is your wanting to see a fantasy? Or are you |
| at my feet. Without warning, the bed started to shake. | | | | looking for more tools to actualize your mission, your |
| I froze. I had no roommates and I was completely still. | | | | longing? So, correct your intentionality around this issue, |
| There were no electronic, vibrating devices attached | | | | you have released much ego around it as the reality |
| to my bed- at least at that moment. When something | | | | of the gift has been revealed. The reality that there is |
| happens like that, it's easy to go into doubt or denial as | | | | power and with that of course comes the |
| a protective mechanism. I thought to myself, "This bed | | | | responsibility to use it wisely and to somewhat protect |
| is not shaking." But I looked over to Jesus and Chica, | | | | yourself. By this we mean that you would prefer to |
| and they had both awoken, their heads perched up, | | | | not to be seeing all the time, and this takes skill, as did |
| alert, eyes in a wide open stare. They looked at me | | | | your ability to channel. It took time and you developed |
| and clearly said, "The bed is shaking." They didn't seem | | | | the skill. We say, the high-level spirit world is not just |
| too upset about it. "Crap," I thought, "I guess the bed is | | | | looking for a good time here; we are looking to make a |
| shaking. I've must have a ghost." By then I was more | | | | difference. Align your intention to see as something |
| irritated than scared. There was a lot of pressure at | | | | that can truly make a difference in your particular |
| school and I did not have time to deal with this. I was | | | | service here. This is what you did with your channeling, |
| not yet trained in sending waywards home, so I just | | | | that was always the goal, but within your motivation |
| went about my business as if it were normal. As long | | | | for seeing was also the goal of proving you could do |
| as I didn't have to see anything, I was fine. This shaking | | | | it-to yourself, to others and to God. So begin to |
| went on and off for the next week and then it | | | | imagine the ways you could use it to help, and look at |
| stopped. Perhaps my ghost was bored with my | | | | the ways you would be willing to help with it. What are |
| apathy. | | | | you really ready for? |
| My second experience felt like an accumulation of | | | | I was humbled by their words, because I had never |
| stress, pressure and, lets face it, 4 yrs of only | | | | thought about how I could use it to further develop my |
| operating on the right, artistic and intuitive side of your | | | | healing work, I just had this overwhelming drive to do it. |
| brain can make reality bend. This night, I was hanging | | | | I just had to be as skilled as Barbara Brennan or |
| at my favorite skater-boy's downtown loft. As usual, | | | | Drunvalo. But, as I am shifting my reasons for learning |
| the evening had started off fun, and then it somehow | | | | it, I am opening up. Now, in my healing work I am able |
| progressed into a video game marathon for the guys, | | | | to relax my vision to match the frequency of the room |
| and frustration for the girls. By some miracle, they tired | | | | as I raise the vibration with energy work. Its that simple. |
| of their marathon and we all crashed out at 3 AM. | | | | Beautiful images emerge: shimmering golden strands, |
| There were about 15 of us. I was having a hard time | | | | the Violet Flame cleansing chakras, luminous beings |
| sleeping, The more sleepy I got, the more awake I | | | | with no real form, colors and lights. I am able to see, |
| was, until I was in some weird in between state where | | | | feel and know love. This seems like a good start, |
| I could see through walls-with all my senses. To my | | | | although I think I still have a ways to go! My third eye |
| shock, through one of the walls I saw, experienced and | | | | mind screen is well developed as an intuitive tool, and I |
| felt a friend of mine hooking up with my favorite skater | | | | regularly channel for clients and groups. All of these |
| boy! My shock only emphasized my delirium. At this | | | | skills are equally important in my work and are linked |
| point I stood up and the room filled with beings, maybe | | | | together through the heart. I never thought my healing |
| 5 beings per skater-boy, and the walls started to | | | | practice was lacking in skill, I thought I was lacking in |
| disappear. All of the zombie like beings were coming | | | | something, that something being proof that I am with |
| towards me, trying to talk to me. I felt them in my body | | | | God. |
| and panicked. My adrenaline kicked in and took over. I | | | | As for open-eyed clairvoyance solving all my |
| bolted from the apartment, frantically running through | | | | problems, well it hasn't. They say seeing is believing- I |
| the streets of Providence at 4:30 in the morning. | | | | have seen plenty and I still don't believe a lot of the |
| When the sun rose, I thought perhaps it was just a | | | | time. I've still got the same old questions everyone else |
| dream, I had imagined it. But when I ran into my friend, | | | | has. Open-eyed clairvoyance is a skill, not an award, or |
| she immediately began to brag about smoochin' it up | | | | a pass to enlightenment. When the illusion is revealed, |
| with my favorite skater boy, confirming my fears. Not | | | | another illusion is revealed. Seeing angels, guides and |
| only could I see zombies through walls, but I had been | | | | chakras isn't any more proof that God exists, or I exist |
| out-smooched by my friend! I didn't know what to do. I | | | | or that I'm a real healer. It only makes life a bit more |
| was not at some Egyptian mystery school with | | | | trippy. |
| knowledgeable elders to help me. I was the only one I | | | | It had been a long time since I let myself see a being in |
| knew that was into this stuff. While this experience | | | | the middle of the night, but last week, I awoke to find a |
| was the most dramatic, I often saw beings at night | | | | woman I had been dreaming about sitting on my bed. |
| and I was always petrified. I wanted contact, I wanted | | | | She was not a guide, but she was made of light and |
| the ability, but it scared me so much. I thought I must be | | | | she was just sitting there. My adrenals practically |
| near insanity. I wished I wasn't so frightened, that I could | | | | exploded, who invited her? If I was going to have an |
| handle it. Overwhelmed, I told no one of what I saw | | | | unexpected late night visitor, it was not going to be a |
| and patiently waited for graduation. | | | | sturdy old woman sitting on my bed. It would be a |
| 12 years later, I still grapple with this issue from time to | | | | hotty like Krishna, and he would be very, very busy. It |
| time. I have discussed this with many healers. We look | | | | was amazing to me that after all these years, and |
| at being able to see these beings and energy realms | | | | after so much training, it would still scare me so much. |
| as if it would take us home, prove our legitimacy, as if | | | | But I realized that it had nothing to do with being afraid |
| it would give us the answers, the illusion will drop, and | | | | of seeing beyond the veil, or being powerless against |
| we will be with God again. It's a force as strong as | | | | stronger forces, it had to do with the fact that there |
| looking for your soul mate, finding your mission, or | | | | was a stranger in my room in the middle of the night, |
| dying; we just can't wait for "that" whatever "that" is. | | | | and my trusty reptilian brain used its built in reflex |
| We are willing to face every fear we have to | | | | system to alert me. I no longer needed to prove I |
| experience a bit of the divine pleasure that comes with | | | | wasn't scared by somehow rising triumphant in my |
| this kind of contact. I have seen many a healer torture | | | | pajamas, pulling rank over the late-night light-being, I just |
| themselves because they cannot see in the way they | | | | needed to put up some good old fashioned boundaries, |
| think they should. It's a soul longing, a soul crying to be | | | | and have her make an appointment during office |
| home and recognized. | | | | hours. |