| This is the story of how I found my Beloved. It is | | | | - He cooks me delicious healthy meals that I love to |
| intimate and sacred, and the reason why I am willing to | | | | eat |
| share with you such a story is because I know there is | | | | - He is neat |
| no more powerful resource in the world than a | | | | - He is athletic |
| woman who is truly loved and no more destructive | | | | - He is tall - (the last few men I dated were around my |
| force than a woman, embittered. So bear with me, the | | | | height which is 5 feet 4 inches) |
| story is lengthy (you can print it out by pressing the | | | | - He speaks several languages |
| printer icon above, and enjoy it over a cup of coffee, | | | | - He likes to surprise me with gifts (I had a bunch of |
| or as a friend did, in a bubble bath : ) You will be sure | | | | dates with starving artists and poverty stricken |
| to be amazed at how magical and supportive the | | | | environmentalists, and wanted a man who understood |
| Universe can be if you allow yourself full connection | | | | finances and lived in abundance.) |
| with your own divinity. | | | | - The list goes on and on and this was something I had |
| The Not So Distant Past | | | | never put on my list before: a great storyteller. |
| 6 years ago I was a very different person than I am | | | | And then it started to happen... I started to see signs. |
| now. I was a deeply emotional being who was | | | | Knight imagery flashed everywhere, from medieval |
| extremely critical of the self and quite a perfectionist. I | | | | paintings to half a dozen of those Knight |
| attended U.C. Berkeley for my undergraduate work | | | | Transportation trucks that you on the highway, all in a |
| and went to NYU Grad Film to become a filmmaker. | | | | course of a month. The signs were helpful as they |
| While in grad school, I balanced a highly competitive | | | | taught me how to relax and to trust. |
| and ego-centric atmosphere with a deep love for | | | | How We Met |
| metaphysical and esoteric knowledge. AND I was in a | | | | And so when on February 7th of last year I met him, I |
| karmic relationship with a fiancé who I loved deeply | | | | didn't freak out and run in the other direction. A mutual |
| but who triggered me intensely. | | | | friend, who had suggested that we get together to |
| Everyone has different things that trigger him or her, | | | | discuss business, introduced us. In our first meeting we |
| for me it was infidelity. My parents were not faithful to | | | | had a 3-hour "business" conversation that had nothing |
| one another. In their language of relationship, infidelity | | | | to do with business but everything to do with |
| was akin to a kind of love dance. Their unconscious | | | | metaphysics, spirituality, and synchronicity. |
| posture was, "Hey if you were jealous and possessive | | | | - He is tall: 6 foot 10 inches to be exact, athletic, a |
| of someone then you cared for them, right?" They | | | | beach volleyball champion. |
| were not aware that their dance translated into a | | | | - He is intuitive: The second time we met, we talked |
| twisted sadness within me, a deep fear of intimacy | | | | for hours, went for a walk on the beach and, he asked |
| and distrust of men. So with this view of the world, | | | | me if he could put his hand on my heart and I thought, |
| what kind of relationships do you think I would attract? | | | | ok not the smoothest way to hit on a girl. I was curious |
| As you know, the law of attraction plays out in the | | | | though and let him. Immediately, grief that I didn't realize |
| midst of love not in spite of it. So four months before | | | | I still held from my relationship with my ex-fiancé, |
| the wedding, my fiancé informed me that he had a | | | | surfaced and sweetly released. I turned to him and |
| lap dance in Tokyo on his business trip. For many | | | | asked him if he knew he was a healer? He replied, "no, |
| women, this may not seem like such a big deal, but our | | | | I just got that I was supposed to do that for you." In |
| triggers are always tailored to our own particular fears. | | | | the next moment, he told me that I was everything on |
| When he saw how distraught I was, he swore that he | | | | his "list". I had completely forgotten about what I had |
| would not do it again, that it was simply because a | | | | put on mine. Luckily I did not look at it until 3 months |
| business partner brought him there for a meeting and | | | | later because I think my personality was not yet ready |
| he was curious...and since I loved him so deeply, I | | | | to accept how "big" the relationship was quite yet. |
| convinced myself that it was a one time fluke..well it | | | | - He is romantic and likes to give gifts: our first official |
| was not. A month before my wedding, everything had | | | | date was on Valentine's Day, where he gave me a |
| been finalized, location, band, caterer, dress was being | | | | blue coral necklace and told me that he wanted to |
| made, guests had booked their tickets, gifts had | | | | love me more than everyone has ever loved me. And |
| already started to arrive. My fiancé returns from his | | | | in case I was not ready, that "he was strong and |
| bachelor's party and remarks, "Honey there was a | | | | would wait for me." |
| good omen for the wedding, I met this woman who | | | | - He understands finances: had worked at Microsoft |
| went to your high school and who is Asian. " "What | | | | and for HP in France, has bought, sold houses, taught |
| woman?" I asked. "Oh the one who gave me a lap | | | | windsurfing in Venezuela. |
| dance..." As in shock as I was, I could see the bizarre | | | | - He speaks several languages, fluent in French and |
| accuracy of the universe at work. This man, | | | | Spanish. |
| self-centered as he was, was not crazy. What he | | | | - He is one of the funniest men I know, and an |
| was saying was so strange (how could a lap dancer | | | | incredible musician and writer. |
| be a good omen for a wedding, no matter which way | | | | - Regarding cooks me yummy healthy meals: He loves |
| you cut it?) it was as if the universe was saying "is this | | | | to cook me crab cakes, fresh fish tacos, and ahi tuna |
| still your trigger? Do you still believe you deserve this?" | | | | salad are just a few of his top dishes. |
| At the time I did not have a clue about divine | | | | - Neat: He is not the neatest person I know but he |
| partnership or the concept of a "beloved", I did know | | | | comes with his own housecleaner. |
| however that I could no longer walk down the aisle | | | | - And storyteller? He has a company that publishes |
| with anything but a grin of terror across my face. So | | | | children's books (many of which he writes). |
| although it felt like catastrophe, losing face in Chinese | | | | Talking with the Universe |
| culture is especially humiliating, I walked away from the | | | | So what of the knight imagery? We went on a hike |
| wedding. | | | | the next weekend in Point Reyes and at one point I |
| I chose at that moment that I would not accept a life | | | | turned around and I saw him for a flash in broad |
| for myself that compromised my values but I also | | | | daylight, wearing a knight's chain mail armor. My mouth |
| realized that I needed help in what I was creating. | | | | dropped open and he asked me what was wrong...I |
| And so I went on a shamanic journey and studied with | | | | told him about the signs I had been having. He smiled |
| top metaphysical intuitives, learning all about the law of | | | | and then told me about how he had recently done a |
| attraction and the art of manifestation. I gained much | | | | meditation where he had a past life regression and |
| wisdom yet none of them were in relationships that I | | | | saw himself in some court system, married to a very |
| would call divine. I continued and faced some of the | | | | powerful woman. He had fallen in love with a woman |
| deepest and darkest shadows of the self, and it was | | | | from the town and when his wife found out she had |
| not until I used my own methods of manifestation and | | | | her brought in front of him and killed. Right before he |
| intuitive work that I was able to not only find but more | | | | met me, he had just released a lot of sorrow around |
| importantly to accept my beloved. | | | | this memory. |
| How My Connection to the Divine Helped Me Manifest | | | | That week an intuitive friend of mine who didn't know |
| Him... | | | | the story said, "hmmm, you guys had a past life |
| But enough of that, you want to hear about the good | | | | together, somewhere in Europe, you were wearing this |
| stuff, how I magically manifested my divine partner...and | | | | tall empire waisted dress and in that life you could not |
| when I say magical it is layered with miracles, because | | | | be together, but now you can..." |
| with the Divine, miracles are the truth and everything | | | | Regardless of whether or not you believe in past lives, |
| else is fiction. | | | | the signs helped me to release doubt, and lent the |
| In 2004, after having been a metaphysical practitioner | | | | entire experience a very fairytale romantic air |
| for a few years, I had transformed quite a bit. I had | | | | (something that I like personally, but which may not be |
| experienced a revolution with my emotions, and flipped | | | | your taste, and your Beloved will be suited to your |
| my emotional state from being mostly worried, anxious | | | | taste). |
| and moody to mostly joyful, peaceful and was just | | | | The first time we embraced, I lost my breath. The |
| around the corner from being mostly ecstatic. I had | | | | amount of love I felt from him nearly knocked me |
| been meditating for years, and even had an | | | | over. The energy between us felt not only like arriving |
| experience where I found myself illuminated and | | | | home, but more importantly didn't feel co-dependent. |
| surrounded by golden light for an entire evening. It was | | | | When we were apart from one another, I still felt |
| so incredibly blissful I wondered why I was on a planet | | | | whole and centered. Did I still have doubts? Yes, every |
| that could have so much suffering if it could be | | | | once in awhile old thought patterns of fear would |
| otherwise. When I asked this question, I heard, "you are | | | | surface but the Universe always made sure to tell me |
| to bring that here." I was a bit confused by that missive | | | | I was on track with signs like these... |
| and still had quite a few years of intense learning | | | | I wanted a man who could speak French and was |
| around manifestation before I found myself on a | | | | witty. Well his license plate seemed to agree. It reads: |
| summer on vacation in Paris with two girlfriends. | | | | 4JEU411 Jeu means "play" in French. 4-Play (ha, ha). |
| We were all learning about dowsing with pendulums, | | | | Another Remarkable Example.... |
| and how to have adventures with them. Although it | | | | So my Beloved owns a company called Aardvark |
| may sound very woo-woo, both of my friends were | | | | Adventure Stories where children can star in their own |
| highly educated and successful women; one was an | | | | personalized adventure books. A talented musician as |
| attorney, who I'll call Vanessa, famous for helping to | | | | well, he was one day recording a song that goes with |
| launch 6 companies in Europe, and the other one, I'll call | | | | one of his books called "A Space Adventure." |
| Mel was a high powered marketing executive who | | | | It is all about how there is a planet called Gronk where |
| helped to sell a startup to a public company. | | | | only horrible sounding music is allowed because |
| One day Mel and I took our pendulums and decided to | | | | Emperor Zonk doesn't allow anyone to smile. The |
| go on an adventure, our only intention was to play with | | | | music somehow reaches Earth, giving everyone a |
| Spirit, and allow ourselves to experience the magic of | | | | huge headache and the protagonist must go to the |
| the day. From the get go there was synchronicity. In | | | | planet and stop Zonk. He/she does so by making the |
| the subway an accordionist was playing "La vie en | | | | Emperor smile. On the day that he was recording a |
| rose". It made me think of Audrey Hepburn in one of | | | | song about this book, I walked by this a license plate |
| my favorite romances, Sabrina. I wondered if maybe it | | | | that read "GRONK" Are you getting the picture? (Pun |
| might be playing somewhere (Paris loves to play old | | | | fully intended) Are you getting just how magnificent |
| American movies). I got a Pariscope (a weekly guide) | | | | and powerful the universe is, and as you are part of |
| and as it turns out not only was it playing; it was | | | | the universe, just how powerful we are? |
| playing only one day a week (that evening) at a small | | | | How Has Having a Beloved Changed My Life? |
| theater which Mel had passed a few days earlier and | | | | - Our passion: physical, spiritual and mental which was |
| commented - "I would love to see a film there." We | | | | incredible when it began, has found no peak, it just |
| scheduled to see it that night. | | | | continues to expand and deepen. |
| In the meantime, we were guided into this small toy | | | | - His presence in my life, guides me to stay connected |
| store in the Marais. I was drawn to this little miniature | | | | to my higher self |
| wizard. I asked the pendulum if this was a symbol for | | | | - Not only do my parents adore him, he's been my #1 |
| Vanessa of her coming man...I got a resounding "yes". | | | | coach in dealing with my charismatic & challenging |
| As I picked it up to purchase it... | | | | father |
| Mel turned around with a knight in shining armor finger | | | | - When we go out, people often feel compelled to |
| puppet. She wiggled it playfully on her finger, and said, | | | | come and talk to us. They remark on how inspired |
| "Look, this is the guy who is coming in for you, look | | | | they are to see the way we are with one another. |
| how playful and smiley he is." All I could think is, "A | | | | Our love encourages an opening in people, rather than |
| knight? How cliché." Secretly though, I could feel a | | | | a shutting down... |
| warmth growing in my heart. | | | | - I feel a sense of safety and purposefulness I didn't |
| As she was teasing, bouncing it up and down | | | | know I could feel as a result of being so held in this |
| obnoxiously in front of me, a miniature horse behind her | | | | love. |
| caught my attention. I pointed it out to her, "And there is | | | | - Our quirks fit exactly. Up until now, supposedly he's |
| your stallion Mel." She paused. We decided to get all | | | | never had a mate that has found him as funny as I |
| three symbols. | | | | have, and he tells me that my snoring (which has had |
| That evening after seeing Sabrina, we met up with | | | | all my exes at one point or another heading for the |
| Vanessa at a brasserie and I handed her, her present | | | | couch) is, "comforting" to him...egad. |
| in a brown paper bag. Before she opened it she heard | | | | - In this partnership, I feel more free, more seen, and |
| a voice say, "This is a symbol of your beloved." When | | | | more grounded than I've ever been. |
| she saw it all she could say was, "What?! He is going | | | | - The events leading up to our meeting as well as the |
| to be old?" "No! I replied, see he is a wizard, | | | | synchronicities that surround our daily lives gives us |
| metaphysical like you, and as you are a double Aries, | | | | knowledge that we are divinely guided. |
| he is holding you up, supporting you!" She did not look | | | | - WE HAVE ADORE ONE ANOTHER AND HAVE |
| convinced. It is funny how our fears can trip us up... | | | | SO MUCH FUN!!! |
| The very next day, we went to meet a new | | | | Imagine having all these qualities and whatever else |
| acquaintance, a friend of a friend who Vanessa had | | | | you want in YOUR Beloved Relationship. |
| just met and who peaked her curiosity intensely. When | | | | 10 MORE REASONS WHY A BELOVED |
| we entered his barren office, I almost burst out with a | | | | RELATIONSHIP IS DIVINE |
| laugh. He had in his office, nothing on his walls except a | | | | - Have a relationship that gets more beautiful, loving |
| poster of the Linux penguin in a wizard outfit. I jabbed | | | | and powerful every year rather than less so! |
| her in the waist. "It is him." As it turns out, he became | | | | - Bring peace to your own life and to your community |
| one of the most transformative relationships she ever | | | | by being an example of love and deep happiness. |
| had. | | | | - You know how love gives you that feeling that you |
| Mel flew back to California and immediately met a guy | | | | can accomplish anything? The Beloved relationship |
| who would say to her, "I am your stallion, honey, I am | | | | ensures that what you create together is for the |
| your stallion." He was also a hugely transformative | | | | benefit of not only you but also the community at |
| man on her path to her Beloved. | | | | large! |
| And me, I said to the universe, NO! I am not ready.... I | | | | - Have a consistent passion with your partner that is |
| had not made my list of what I wanted. In the years | | | | based on respect, gratitude and trust. |
| following my breakup with my ex-fiancé, I had | | | | - Know that your partner is a whole and complete |
| learned to make a list for manifesting what I wanted. I | | | | human being and so are you so that you are able to |
| made lists of everything from ideal jobs, to apartments, | | | | thrive even when the other person isn't around. |
| to, the "One". And I will have to say that for a long | | | | - Gain constant inspiration and enthusiasm for life, |
| time, making the list for a relationship was a | | | | because there is nothing that nourishes the soul more |
| halfhearted event. I was still too wounded from the | | | | than unconditional love. |
| wedding that never happened. | | | | - Have more confidence in manifesting all the other |
| But funnily enough that did not seem to make any | | | | desires you have, because the power of 2 |
| difference to the universe. Each time I got exactly | | | | exponentially increase your ability to manifest. |
| what I requested, and learned about more things I had | | | | - Have a playmate who truly "gets you" and supports |
| not thought about...(the universe will give you what you | | | | your most expansive, loving, magnificent vision of self. |
| need to take you to the next level). | | | | - Create divine family and community that enrich the |
| Creating "the List" | | | | lives of all you touch. |
| But when I came home to California this time, I had | | | | By definition a Beloved relationship supports your |
| been through years of healing, of learning how to read | | | | connection to Source and is marked with synchronicity, |
| and shift energy, I was awake, conscious of how I | | | | miracles, and magic. |
| co-created with the universe and I wanted nothing less | | | | - I truly believe that it is only through loving presence |
| than a divine partnership, someone who I'd be spending | | | | (with self and in partnership that we can engender |
| a good portion of my life with, who served me by | | | | such a society.) |
| serving my highest and best purpose, who could be a | | | | So if you are still on the search for your beloved, don't |
| true companion on that journey. Here is an excerpt | | | | give up! It is your divine birthright and the forces of the |
| from my list: | | | | Universe are conspiring every day to bringing him/her |
| - My beloved is deeply intuitive and metaphysical, | | | | to you. |
| spiritual in a way that is harmonious with my spirituality | | | | |