A Spiritual Journey from Malpractice to Peace and Contentment

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In an interview with Maurice Broadus, Jim Stovall,Cynthia's feelings began to change with each Sunday
best-selling author of The "Ultimate Gift", said, "it takesvisit to church. The pastor at the church constantly
a life-altering event to move from religion topreached the "Good News," the Gospel, and the fact
relationship." Mr. Stovall further elaborated that "one'sthat, as an example of the ultimate sacrifice and an
faith has to go from a theory that you take down andexample of all that a parent will do to save his child,
polish off on Sunday mornings to something real thatGod sent his only son to live on this earth as a human
you can live with." In the case of Cynthia Paddockand to ultimately die for the sins of the whole world so
Doroghazi, suffering through a traumatic brain injurythat we mortals could be reconciled forever to Him.
(TBI) was the life altering event that ultimately moved"Who was this God?" Cynthia asked. "Who was this
her from religion to relationship.God, who was so loving and self-sacrificing that he
Cynthia was in her second semester as a candidatewould do this? Was this the same God, she asked,
for a master's degree at The Johns Hopkins University"who had left me paralyzed and in a coma and forced
School of Advanced International Studies (SAIS) inme to abandon my chosen career path? What kind of
Washington, D. C. when symptoms of hydrocephalus,God was this that would force me to live with a
more commonly known as water on the brain, intrudedtraumatic brain injury (TBI)?"
into her daily routine. The procedure used to correctAccepting she could never answer these questions,
this condition is considered routine in the realm of brainCynthia decided to make some sense of her own
surgery as the patient is in and out of the hospital insituation. So, she began to search for the meaning of
four days, with a recovery period of about twoher existence in an attempt to discover why she was
weeks.literally saved from death. Did this God that she was
God apparently had other plans for Cynthia. After thehearing so much about have a plan for her life as the
operation, Cynthia was transferred from the recoveryOld Testament of the Bible says in Jeremiah, Chapter
room to the Neurological Concentrated Care Unit.29, verse 11? "For I know the plans I have for you,"
While there, Cynthia began to hemorrhage. The bleeddeclares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to
began to compress her brain, cutting off the flow ofharm you, plans to give you hope and a future." If so,
oxygen.what was it?
By the time the nurse in charge of Cynthia's careIn embarking upon this search, Cynthia tried to answer
perceived the gravity of Cynthia's deterioratingthe questions: "How can a person enter the hospital
condition and notified the resident on call, Cynthia wasfor what is supposed to be a routine operation and
experiencing respiratory failure. Cynthia was twentyend up paralyzed on the left side of her body, in a
minutes away from death before the nurse called thecoma, unable to walk or talk, being fed through a tube,
resident on duty.with the I.Q. of a vegetable?" And, "How is it that same
Upon examining Cynthia, the resident called a codeperson, whom doctors predicted would be in an
blue, and she was rushed back into surgery, where ainstitution for the rest of her life and unable to continue
procedure to cut away part of her skull to evacuatealong her chosen career path, survive the odds and
the blood was performed. Cynthia slid into a coma,live to fight another day?" How indeed?
moving in and out of a semi-vegetative state for theCynthia found inspiration from a scene from the movie,
next three months. At the time of her transfer fromThe Sound of Music. In this scene, The Mother
her hospital in Washington, D.C. to Magee RehabilitationSuperior calls Maria before her to ask why she has
Hospital in Philadelphia, Cynthia was paralyzed on therun away from the Von Trapp family household and is
left side of her body, with the IQ of a vegetable, inseeking refuge in the convent from which she had
diapers, being fed through a tube, able to remembercome. The viewer ultimately discovers that Maria has
very little and facing the prospect of having to relearnfallen in love with Captain Von Trapp and, out of fear
what a baby learns in the first years of life.of the unknown and because she had no experience
The events surrounding that tragic day, May 7, 1990,in how to deal with such a situation, she fled. The
ultimately set Cynthia on a journey to discover whoMother Superior says to Maria, "When God shuts a
she was and for what purpose she was on this earth.door. He almost always opens a window."
In short, it brought about a spiritual awakening. CynthiaFor Cynthia, the Mother Superior's statement has
recounts this amazing journey in her recently publishedtranscended her life. Events in Cynthia's past
book, target="_new.demonstrate how that statement very clearly applies
When people experience any kind of misfortune,to her life. As she examined the various turning points
devastating disease, or loss, it is not unusual for themin her life: her ultimate choice of careers, her decision
to end up bitter and angry. Cynthia, too, continued to beto leave New York and enter graduate school in
bitter and angry for years. Then, one Sunday, about aWashington, D.C., the process by which she ended up
year after her release from Magee Rehabilitationat Magee Rehabilitation Hospital, even the events
Hospital, Cynthia attended a church in San Antonio,surrounding meeting her future husband, Cynthia began
Texas where the pastor delivered a sermon about ato see the possibility that there was a larger force in
shepherd and one sheep that was always running offthe universe at work, a greater Being who had a plan
into the woods, getting lost or otherwise getting intofor her life and was constantly shaping events, leading
mischief. After several failed attempts at discipline, theher down a path to an ultimate, but as yet unknowable,
shepherd finally broke the sheep's legs and thengoal, another "open door" as Cynthia characterizes it. In
carried him on his back until the sheep's legs healed.the end, Cynthia has come to believe that these turning
From that moment forward, the sheep never strayedpoints were not just a series of coincidences. Cynthia
far from his master's side. That sermon really spoke tobelieves that these turning points were all part of a
Cynthia, because, in many respects, the story of thatdivine plan to place her where she needed to be to
sheep was, from Cynthia's standpoint, her story.receive the help she needed to recover from her
Hearing that parable was the beginning of Cynthia'straumatic brain injury (TBI). Cynthia's spiritual journey
spiritual awakening, a process that has taken morehas taken her from a point of despair to a place
than fifteen years of her life. This spiritual awakeningwhere she enjoys true peace and contentment.
did not occur overnight. Upon returning to Washington,Copyright 2007 by Cynthia P.
D.C. in 1992, Cynthia started going to church, more as a