A Scientist's Spiritual Journey

Stanley was my best friend. The last time I saw him,regard matter as being composed of billiard ball-like
we both wore our new Cub Scout uniforms. Stanley,component atoms. This materialistic perspective leads
however, occupied a coffin.to several conclusions which are incompatible with
The church's silence, the images before me, and thespiritual beliefs. The first conclusion by materialists is
sweet floral fragrance contributed to my trancelikethat reality is simply physical and that spirit, or
state. The minister spoke softly as he said,immaterial essence, is myth. The second is that the
"Sometimes, we cannot understand God's will. Stanleymind and consciousness are merely the result of brain
is in heaven."activities. These assumptions logically eliminate free will,
I was too shocked by my friend's death tosince if all the workings of the universe and humans
contemplate this notion, although I could see Stanley'sare mechanical, as many scientists posit, humans
body in his casket.cannot influence the future. Finally, the third is that since
I hid my grief and trauma. Just as each Cub Scoutwe are but matter, when we die nothing
badge I earned was put away in a cigar box, nearly allsurvives-neither mind nor spirit.
of my childhood memories, along with my sense ofBut what is life? And what really happens after death?
loss over Stanley, were placed in a mental cigar box. IWhether a person lives seven years or 70, is life
focused on my dream of becoming a scientist.merely a succession of vignettes of memories,
Ultimately, I became a physical organic chemist, and Ifeelings, and experiences that vanish when we die? Is
had no occasion to ponder death or spiritual mattersthat it-like they never happened at all? Seeking
until decades later when another death occurred.alternatives to the materialistic perspective, I searched
The Journeyfor scientific evidence for existence after death.
When death again grabbed my attention, I questionedPerhaps, I reasoned, many people embrace spirituality
what had happened to Stanley and to all those whoin the hope of an afterlife.
die. I reopened the box that hid my childhoodHealing the Rift
memories, thus beginning a 25-year process ofI pondered these questions, and spirituality began to
questioning the nature of our existence. My workinch back into my life. Beginning as a distant whisper,
involved biology and chemistry, but my quest tothe voice grew nearer. The image of spirituality
understand human existence also led to an expandedchanged into a welcome friend who cherished our
study of cosmology and physics. I tackled the bigworld. I found a fascinating contrast between science
questions: Where did we come from? How did lifeand spirituality and, in the contrast, I also found
originate? What is reality? How can mind andunexpected harmony.
consciousness emerge from brain and body? I realizedMy journey took me on a tour of the mind-boggling
that science doesn't have the answers to thesescientific concepts of the creation of the universe, life,
questions-only suppositions.and humankind. New theories reveal a startling view of
Are we simply a collection of cells in a human bodyreality. Recent breakthroughs explain how mind and
that eventually becomes ill and perishes when it fails?consciousness emerge from body and brain,
Many scientists support this theory, while spiritualoverturning previous dogmas and offering new healing
beliefs contradict it. Is there a plan for us? Sciencemethods. New studies provide fascinating insights into
explains our bodies as mechanisms of the materialthe possibility of an afterlife. Comparing 21st-century
realm, ignoring the issue of any possible plan or design.science with spiritual beliefs, I found that a new truth
Spirituality, on the other hand, views our bodies as bothwas emerging. I discovered how the rift between
material and immaterial, asserting that there is a "plan."science and spirituality can be healed.
With the exception of physicists, scientists typically